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Farewell Redvixen

It is with a heavy heart that I, Celest "Mouse" Horn, am here to announce the passing of my mother: Terrilee "Redvixen" Horn.

She passed away shortly ago (Roughly 9pm AST), due to a complication with a minor surgery to remove a clot in her lung.

For those of her friends on here that I do not know, I am sorry for your loss. Just as I am sure you are for mine.

If you know her as well as I'm sure you do, you probably know she prefers that people don't let this stop them. That they fight back, and live to the best they can.

Remember her, the good and the bad. For it is all a part of her. And what we love about her.

A Brief Update

So we're all moved and we have the Internet back, finally. Lots to post about but still quite busy and I'm waiting for the repair man. The front burner of the stove isn't working.

May was a month I was extremely happy to have done with. I never got the promised help so ended up doing most of the packing on my own. Mouse was working full time until the 20th and couldn't help until after then but he also had his own room to pack up. My sporadic upset stomach became a more constant companion, hitting every 2-3 days so I knew my electrolyte levels were dropping. Which affected how much I could get done in a day. So by the time Mouse was able to help me, I was crashing. Went for my blood work because I knew from how tired I was that my levels were really low. Figured I could try and make it through the weekend or at least arrange to go for an infusion at Emergency on Sunday. However my magnesium was critically low and I had to go in that day for an infusion. While there the heart monitor went off. My heart slipped into a fast fibrillation for a second and a half but came out of it on my own.

Scared me half to death when the monitor went off next to me and that probably was what got me back into normal rhythmn. Still, my doctor wanted me to stay for observation and tests and despite knowing there was still enough work at home to keep both Mouse and myself busy, this was my health and especially my heart we were dealing with. So, I stayed. Then the overnight stay turned into the weekend stay and I wasn't able to be home to help pack the last and manage the move.

*groans* Such bad, bad timing.

I knew Carvis would take advantage of me not being there to get rid of some stuff he felt we no longer needed but his family decided to be "helpful" as well as threw out everything that was old, discoloured, or damaged without wondering why I hadn't already gotten rid of it. Mostly because I couldn't afford to replace it yet. *deep sigh* But they didn't think about that so the move has now cost me over double almost triple what was planned and is still climbing in costs. This was a bad time because the money that was supposed to help us over the summer has now been used getting back needed stuff. The list of things I had wanted to get has been pushed back since we can live without them for a couple of months (although the green compost bin is first on the list).

There were a couple of accidents and things got broken. Understandable, it happens. And the living room furniture turned out to be too large to fit through the doorway of the new apartment and the windows as well. So I need replacement furniture now. Using Mouse's futon for the present but that's damaged and needs to be thrown out soon. However, furniture is too expensive for now. We;ll make do as long as we can with the futon.

The new place is nice. Has two problems - we have to go outside to get the mail and access the laundry room. Aside from that, it's warmer which is a big benefit. Once Mouse and Merc are both gone (Mouse leaves tomorrow and Merc on the 20th) this will be perfect for Carvis, me, and the cats.

And finally, after four years, I have a crafting center!!!!!

Better a Late Update Then No Updates

So I see my last post was in Feb so I'm behind on my updates. But I have a good reason.

I've been extremely busy and once incommudicado.

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Snow

So average yearly accumulation for the Moncton area is 325 cm of snow. We have now had 340 cm of snow fall. That's over 133 inches. Granted some of the snow melted before this last storm but our windows are covered and the snow on our yard is up between waist and shoulders on all of us.

The cats don't like being closed in and unable to see out the window. However, I have to wait for someone to move his butt and shovel a spot clear since I'm not allowed to do any shovelling. I was told there will be a path cleared at some point today. Still waiting for it to happen.

On the plus side, it's a bit warmer in here so I was able to turn down the heater a bit. Effective temperature is still the same, just the setting is lower so less power being required. Maybe I can get the power bill back under $200. Doubt it though since I now need to turn on the lights in the living room to see, at least until some one digs out the window a bit.  Oh well.

Merry Christmas

It's Christmas Eve and we've got a big day tomorrow so I'm taking this opportunity to wish all my LJ friends a Very Merry Christmas and whether you celebrate on the 24th or the 25th I hope your day is joyous, safe, and full of good food, family, and friends.

Time For The Christmas 2014 Poem

It's that time of year for my traditional poem for my family and friends. Hope you enjoy it. Been a busy year for me and quite an emotional roller coaster.

Christmas 2014

Cold wind blows

Through swirling snows

Falling gently to the ground

Clouds of grey

Here to say

That winter is homeward bound

Twinkling lights

Make magical sights

Of daily dreary scenes

Brilliant lights

Mix of whites,

Reds, yellows, blues, and greens

Harps and bells ring

Choir and solos sing

Music fills the air

Cooking smells

And Christmas bells

Are found every where

Hearth and home

Stay or roam

Family and friends held dear

It's Christmas once more

The season of yore

To all a wonderful year


Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!! May 2015 be a healthier, richer year for everyone!

So A QuickUpdate

Let's see. Where did I leave off>

Carvis's grandmother died a few days before Halloween. We were expecting the call for a few days before it finally came and she died peacefully early in the morning. So, that wait is over.

Hi father's been having an allergic reaction to the medication he got put on and has ended up in the hospital a couple of times. Currently he's in until they get the stuff cleared out of his system. Not something he's happy about or anyone else.

I ended up going in myself for part of a day. I finally went for my blood work and my magnesium level was so low it almost wasn't there. So in I went for some emergency IV and pill treatment. My potassium and hemoglobin are also low and I'm supposed to be taking pills for the potassium and magnesium over the weekend. However, I keep trying to throw up the potassium pills so that isn't working. I will have to call my doctor on Monday and find out what she wants me to do next - probably go back and check my blood for one thing.

I didn't realize I was in a depression for the past few months. I was fooling myself into thinking I was simply skirting the edges and bouncing back from the edges of one when I was really sliding deeper into one. On Tuesday, I snapped out of it. Literally. I heard some Christmas music from a link on oe of the sites I was visiting and something just snapped inside, pulling me back into place. I looked at what I had been doing to myself and went as soon as I could for blood work. Was supposed to go Wednesday but ended up throwing up that day so didn't risk going out.

Things are better but still need work. I was into a pattern of throwing up every second day which didn't help the eating problem and had no interest in food as well, which really didn't help. Still don't have a lot of interest in food although that's starting to change. Carvis sliced steak into strips and fried that up tonight for Mouse and me. I had a little bit and actually wanted more. Unfortunately, Mouse thought I wouldn't want any more and took the rest. By the time I went back for more, it was too late. Oh well. At least i was interested in it. That's better than nothing.

My stomach starts the day being upset so I need to ettle it and then I spend the day eating slowly. I get something to eat, like a bowl of cereal and take between 30 and 45 minutes eating only to start being hungry again about 30 minutes later. *sighs* If I eat faster my stomach gets upset and I throw up. I can go longer between eating sessions but the hunger level just keeps increasing and if it gets too high my stomach gets upset. Grr. I will find a balance.

Spices are weird. Some upset my stomach, some don't. Tomatoes are fine but sauces based on tomatoes upset my stomach. Italian and now Catalina salad dressing are upsetting but Caesar salad dressing isn't nor is sweet and sour sauce. I guess I have to be weird and different or is that difficult? :P

Whatever. The important thing is that I'm back to taking an interest in what I'm doing and determined to fix things. Might not know exactly how but I will find a way. Also, I was working on Christmas presents but had stopped just because I wasn't feeling any interest so now I need to move my butt and finish them. Luckily, it;s not many and they shouldn't take too long to do. Then i can work on a few things for my own pleasure and house and get my decorating done.

Carvis has asked me to start playing Christmas music early this year, on the 25th of Nov instead of waiting for Dec 1st as usual. He thinks this will be my last Christmas and wants it to be special, enough that he's willing to put up with it for longer than he normally does.  I think I'll be nice to him and keep the music low or just play it when he isn;t here and still wait until Dec 1st before I decorate.  I'm just trying to figure out how to have a tree this year without Ilara eating the tree and getting sick or hurting herself. That frncing idea is appealing but it takes more space than I really have in the apartment.

Considering the fact that she's already stared trying to get at the box, I don't hold any hope that she won't be interested in eating the tree this year.

The News Just Doesn't Get Better

So, I've been rather quiet lately online. Took me a while to deal with the news I got in July and now for the past month or so I've been struggling with eating. I had gotten used to being able to eat about half of what anyone else does and having an extra "meal" or snack throughout the day. But now the amount I can take at a time has been reduced by about a third. So anything more than the equivalent of two pieces of toast is too much food. I had a BLT a week ago and could only eat about half of it and had to leave the rest for later.

So trying to make something to eat without having a lot of leftovers is much harder now. I used to be able to have a can of something but now that's too much. And to make it even tougher, tomato sauce/paste based products are upsetting my stomach so that means no pasta, no pizza, and no lasagna.  I love lasagna and pizza. *whimpers*

Meal times are hard now. Mouse can't have greasy foods and pork on top of the usual food intolerances. So, while it's easy to make something for Carvis and Merc, I can't always make something that Mouse and I can also eat. So, I'm not supposed to be stressing over things but meals are stressful. *sighs*

And yes, I have been losing weight, slowly but steadily. I'm tired all the time and a quick trip out for groceries wears me out. Not good.

To top things off, Carvis's grandmother has also stopped eating and is on an IV in Intensive Care. Granted she's 95 but we're all worried and wondering how much longer she'll live. Carvis's mother and brother went down to Nova Scotia to see her and she was just lying there. She didn't seem to know they were there. Sort of like how my mom was during her last few days.

Once again, an even numbered year is proving to be a year we want over with and forgotten as soon as possible. I guess we've been lucky for too long with no major disasters or bad things happening. I can only hope that the bad tidings portion of the year is finished now.

This is a straight forward vent

So no need for alarm or responses.

I left money for groceries while I was gone and told Carvis to pick up anything that was needed before I got back. He had Mouse and Merc to do the actual running around. Granted Mouse is having trouble right now with high acid buildup but she's going to work so could hop out on Tuesday for anything needed. All he did was get Merc to pick up some milk and bread at the store.

So I get home and we're low on food for the main meals. Thursday I was recovering from all the running around I did in Halifax and reassuring the cats that I was here and not leaving them again soon. Then Friday Mouse's acid reflux flared up and we spent most of the day in the hospital. Which meant I went over 10 hours without eating anything except breakfast. Which translates to over a full day (26 hours) with only a sandwich and a glass of juice since I hadn't had a snack before bed Thursday night. I had intended to hop out Friday morning but obviously got sidelined.

So yesterday I was still feeling shaky and light headed and didn't want to go out. Mouse was still recovering from the flareup and Merc was - guess - too busy on his computer to want to go any place. Then after a late lunch, he went to sleep. His sleeping schedule is so screwed up right now and he's not even trying to get it straightened out before his course starts because there's still 5 weeks to go.

Anyway, I hopped out today because now we're out of milk and out of bread. Mouse has to avoid greasy food and I'm supposed to cut back on meats and eat more veggies myself so we're looking at a lot of stir fry meals in our future. Which is fine, we like them but they are expensive. As far as today was concerned, I had $20 plus enough Air Miles for an extra $10 off but only one punch left on my bus pass. Plus it's Sunday so the schedules are slightly different. Which meant I had about 15-20 minutes to get from the street, across the parking lot, through the store, back across the parking lot and waiting at the street for the bus. It takes me a few minutes to cross the parking lot and it leaves me out of breath. My doctor thinks I'm developing asthma and apparently 99% of redheads develop asthma at some point in their lives. :(

So, we had discussed whether or not we wanted hamburger or hot dogs and Carvis was looking at hot dogs to be different from the frozen hamburgers they've been eating while I was gone. However, I'm not crazy about hot dogs and I wanted some good hamburgers, not the frozen junk. Since I was the one hopping out, I got hamburger and buns. Also the milk, some bananas, bread, and fries.

Carvis looks at the groceries as he's putting them away and says "Hamburger. I don't know how Merc is going to feel about having more hamburgers after all the ones he's had."

You know what? I don't bloody well care how Merc feels about it. If he wanted something different he should offer to run out for me. I went out, I bought the groceries, I will most likely make the meals, he can eat it or have something he bought for himself. He certainly spends enough on his own food instead of helping buy for everyone. He knows we could use any extra money we get but instead of trying to pay back the times he's missed rent or offering some extra instead of buying more games, he doesn't even think of it.

I don't expect him to consider us over himself but it would be nice if he sometimes thought more about helping us instead of spending money on himself. I know he wasn't raised that way but that's what we've been trying to show and teach him for the past three years is how a family actually helps one another. I guess we've done so far with what we have managed to teach him but lords do I wish that particular lesson would sink in faster.

I also need to talk with Carvis about his attitude and negative comments. Both Mouse and I need to reduce our stress levels and that means we need some help from the guys as well. *rolls eyes* So I need some place/way to vent and de-stress.

Just waiting for September to come. I will have some peace and quiet and time alone then. September. September. September. 

Okay, back from my trip. There were good times (Masked Bandit at the IWK!), great times Michelle and Logan!!!!!!!!), and not so great times.

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